The Hunger Games

Every battle begins with hunger. Whether it’s wealth, power or freedom…we are all hungry for something. Why does this matter? Well, because hunger tends to affect (and be the deciding factor) on the way that we think and behave. Majority of the areas that I am “hungry” in tend to center mostly around my children. There are very few things that I guess I really want for myself, solely. But, I guess that makes sense…right?

I go to a job, that I hate, 5 days a week and I spend time there, really doing nothing, just to earn the almighty dollar (literally, it’s not much). I get home and I am sometimes too tired to even do anything with my children but I suck it up and drive on. After cooking, cleaning, helping with homework – while also doing some homework myself, being the designated chauffeur to my children, getting dinner in their tummies, taking baths, brushing teeth, and bedtime stories, I honestly want to just go to bed and not wake up for a couple of days. But that’s not an option because who’s going to provide for my children, if I don’t?

So, I get up and do the same routine every single day and I must say that this has taught me a lot about myself. One thing that I have come to realize is that I am not super mom, or super woman for that matter, even if I want to be…it’s not happening! I am just a mom that loves her kids more than anything and am doing the best she can with what she has. And I have come to the conclusion that, that’s okay.

I would absolutely love to be able to quit my daytime job and spend that time doing what I love…what I’m passionate about…what I am hungry for. I am working my butt off right now, trying to get to a better place and space in this life so that I can possibly be the role model that I want my kids to follow. And even if I don’t end up ever getting a chance to truly live out my dreams, at least I’ll know that I tried. Okay, who am I kidding…that will never satisfy me! But I digress…

Maybe I’ll be this award winning author or have an awesome blog that everyone wants to read…maybe I will be the entrepreneur that takes great risks and amazing things will follow…maybe I will say something, record something or even write something that will “go viral” (lol) and take my life in a whole new direction. Maybe… I am hungry for change and hungry for something that I have never had and not absolutely sure how to even describe it but I’ll know it when I see it. For now, I am trying to be content in where I am in life but still working to get to where I want to be when this is all said and done.

So, what are you hungry for?

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